oh my god, how do i even start with today?
hahahahaha!

after school,i got ready to meet aslam^^ because we were gonna have dinner together,JUST US BOTH, he said.
hahahaha

so this is how it goes,
we arrived at raffles, and it was raining, our plan to eat at lau pasat was canceled.
aslam told me that he needed to call nazri(he's friend), but strangely he took my phone, and waited only till he entered the toilet to make the call. so i was like, asking questions like , ''asal tak call skkarang?'' ''asal kene kat dalam toilet?'' and etc etc. hahahaha

so then he decided that he wanted to go to swensens. at marina, so we walked all the way from raffles to marina, torturing yes.
when we arrived at marina's swensens, he was having doubts in having that. but i noticed that he looks like he was searching for someone.
then he told me that he needed to go to the toilet again. i was like seriously, again?
whatever, so he went then miracle-ly decided to eat at breeks which is like really odd for him to like choose a very random restaurant.
so we walked around marina to find breeks, my legs was killing, and i was getting pissed.

till like an hour after we arrived, we finally found breeks. and ohh my god,
hahahaha!
i heard the waiter said ''you're meeting your friends?'' and aslam was like '' yeah''. hahaah! i saw my gfs there! already sitting. hahahhaha im like oh my goddd...
hahahahahaha i sat down, i was speechless, i was putting up the fucked up face. hahahaha! duh~ aslam really made me walk a really long distance! then just to find that restaurant, it took us about half an hour. hahaha! and when i arrive, this is what i receive....my feelings were jumbled up. hahahah!

we ate and all, surprisingly the price wasnt bad.
and when we finished eating, we talked and joke around here and there.
then suddenly omg, i heard the whole of the breeks crew singing happy birthday song for me! hahaha! awww right? and the manager was bringing me my cake! hello kitty-.- thanks girls.
hahahahaha! it was a really big surprise. it almost caused me a heart attack.

though i used to say i hate surprises, this was the bestest surprise that i love most.
thanks to aslam(the mastermind) who sneaked behind my back to meet up with my friends to buy me a cake and plan this whole thing. and all his sidekicks who're actually the girls i love most! hahaha



i really wanna say thank you to who actually made my birthday a happy one, for all three days. HHAHAHA. my family, my boyfriend, and also my girlfriends!
i really love you all, and i really appreciate what you guys have done for me!
*hugs*

p.s thahirah, watch out.

Happy birthday to me!

ITS MY BIRTHDAY!

at exactly 12 midnight, the wishes has been flowwingg in from messages to facebook to even delivery! hahahahaha
thank you guys for the awesome wishes! especially aslam who hasn't stop wishing me since the start, and he even flooded my facebook wall. hahahha i love him!
i love all of you!

oh thanks AIM for the awesome gift! hahahaha. i got home to a beautiful box filled with amazing gifts. ^^

anyways. I reached school and got wished by everyone who was already in the parade square. zalilah even sang loudly -.- haha!
then my honeybabies sab,nad and sak came and wished me happy birthday^^

hahaha then school went on normally.
until it was time to go home.

oh..my. god. Nadia, sabrina,sakinah,nazri, hannan and syafiq just totally started throwing water at me,i was like wtf? i tried getting away but they kept on blocking, ahahahah babi right. i was freaking wet!! and i had to meet aslam after school! it was hot outside and i was soaking wet i have no idea how im gonna get home like that all by myself. THANKS GUYS.THANKS ALOT.

hahahaha anyways..i went home and changed. then went to meet My lovely BBFE^^
i got out, and called him but he didn't answer. buat orang panas skejap uh, because usually if he doesnt answer, he's probably sleeping.and he wouldn't go out without telling me first.

i arrived, and waited for him, tried calling him again,but still no answer. then suddenly he surprised me from behind. die fike cute uh -.- hahahah okay la. then we were deciding what to eat,wasn't in the mood for anything usual. ahaha so we ate at SEOUL GARDEN! woo. hahahahah we definitely ate alot. hahahaha especially aslam ^^
thank you sayang for spending time with me today^^

oh and friday will be the real celebration of my birthday^^ with aslam :) he's treating me to dinner :)
tomorrow ill be having my dinner with the family^^ wah. power. oh and before that, im going shopping with my bro! he wants to buy me something. hahahaha ARE YOU SURE??? YOU WANA GO SHOPPING WITH ME? BE PREPARED. hahahahaha!

oh and daddy transferred a large amount of money to my account. which is like AWESOME!
hahahahahha he got a promotion! so congratulation daddy^^ proud of you.

so anyways. overall it was a great day.^^ thanks to everyone who has wished me a happy birthday. and indeed i did have a happy one.
i hope tomorrow and friday would be a better day^^ hehehe .

thank you everyone! i love you all! :)
till then xoxo adios!

hey hey hey.
i just got back from search-hunt at aslam's house for my assignments.
thank god i found it.
he wasn't at home though. no idea where he was in fact.
whatever^^im just glad i found my papers!

anyways today,school was freaking full of practicals.
we experimented alot during chemistry and biology.
it was fun. during chemistry i accidentally placed in too much chemical that it bubbled out of the test tube, like volcano. hahahahahahaha!
oh yeah, i really had a bad start in the morning.
i woke up late. my brother,delayed more time to leave the house, and there was a traffic jam that don't usually happened on my usual journey to school.
i was freaking pissed off cause i was already late yesterday, and i had to argue with the old man. add to that,my dad had to give me the speech he gives me every morning without fail, '' next time,don't sleep too late!, wake up early! you're late and you expect me to fly this car? '' blah3.. i swear im starting to memorize the lines.

okay back to happy azyani, back to happy.
ill be 17 as of tomorrow! woo hoo!
and aslam's calling..... brb.
and back!
aslam is really passing his tests for his bike license really fast.
oh wells, who knows, the next thing i know, he'll already be having a bike of his own.
that boy really works for what he wants. and im happy for him. :)

okay i am off!
tired.
bye! ^^

OKAY BLOG! COME TO LIVE! MUAHAHAHA.

I am going to start blogging again.

the reason why i haven't been updating is because i was busy with school stuffs.NOT. i was just plain lazy. and yeah, i am busy.
O levels are really stressing. work here and there
non-stop classes.
theres even a mock exam this saturday. ON A FREAKIN SATURDAY.
damn it.

okay enough school talk.
aslam and i are as happy as ever. in fact last 2 days was our 2 year 3 months anniversary^^ thank god for our long lasting relationship. i just hope NO ONE would bother us again.ever.

what i told to a friend of mine, is that ive learned something.
i realized that the stronger i hold on to him, the more he struggles to get out, and the next thing i know, he's off with some other girls.
i told myself to let him go.
be confident that he wasn't going anywhere even if i do it.
and i did.
and guess what, he's here. and he seems happy. :)
i guess i just need to understand a lil bit more. there're just some things i simply can't stop him from doing.^^ i hope that with this change, we'd be a better couple. love you always sweetheart.
and that aside....
lets see.
oh yeah!
recently went out with my GFs! and hell, it was awesome^^ as usual.
we went to botanic garden then sheesha. oh and hasbi was there too! hahaha miss his jokes. he really did added more noise to the already huge volume made by us girls. haha. aslam and adha was there too^^ the more the merrier. the day ended off with us taking our dinner at bugis's tong seng. it was my first time there, and i really hate it. for real. its like icky. bleargh.
hehehe

what else what else.
yes, on the wednesday of this precise week, which is on the 24th of march 2010, IM TURNING 17! oh yeah. im young. and im proud of it! hahahahahha.
my family is planning a dinner. so i guess that's one. and My lovely bbfe Aslam, is planning to take me out on the friday. hahaha ^^
hope itll all turn out great. i mean, hell, its my birthday!
like D said, '' tell your dad to get his cash, cards , offers, coupons ready, he has some serious shopping to do '' HAHAHA. hey, what do you expect from a to-be 17 year old girl?
hehe

oh wells, there you are with some of thee updates. you don't expect me to lay it all out now do you?
ill update again when there's something to update^^ till then.

bye bitches. xoxo

Now remember my last post?
the deal i had with aslam when he took back his words to not follow me and my friends to sentosa, and in the end followed?
the deal was, i had to follow him to on valentine's day to or was it before? cant remember, to his friend(fir) 's birthday! haha okay know what? i did more than that, i slept over. and i had fun. hahahaahah there's prove damn it!

sorry for not updating for a very very long time.
one word, MALAS.
im updating now..

this is gonna be a long one.

so here's what happened today. but,this might be mixed with what happened the day before,or maybe the day before the day before. i don't know, i just ramble everything i wanna say,so just see where it leads yeah?

the gfs went to SENTOSA. along with their partners of course.

Nad texted me like 3 days before? and i was already confirming with everyone.
everyone but one, :( my own bf. he didn't wanna go because apparently, he's not a ''beach person''. i was disappointed,upset,angry everything all mixed up.
i really didn't know what to say.
everyone was telling me to get him to go. been there,done that. his answer was still no.-.-
i gave up and just simply said, let him be. suddenly, i wasn't that much excited about going.
that night he gave me a call... saying that he wanna make it up with me the day after. but, as much as i would appreciate everything,that wasn't what i wanted.
we talked and talked through out the whole night.
IN THE END, he said to me he'll follow.i had brain freeze moment,but i told him it's okay because i wouldn't want him to do something he doesn't like. but he insisted,and said ''anything for you''. yeah,but there was a condition,no need to know what. k admit,though i felt sorry for him,i still was glad that he decided to follow.=) thank you so much b.

the rough convo went to a pleasant one. he asked if i could still go out with him,
so i said yes..i mean,what kinda person am i if i were to say no right.
oh oh and guess what HE TURNED 18 ON THE 28TH OF DECEMBER,and on that particular day i went out with him,he enrolled for his motor license! life would be so easier once he has a bike of his own.EH B EH?.^^ its all his every wanted, im just happy for him. its like seeing him eat alot,so happy.HAHA.then did a lil shopping for himself,ate and then back to his house and then back to mine^^.

back to what happened today,
sentosa. see i told you ill ramble about other days too.
everything was great. went to his house early in the morning,coz i know he just won't wake up.layed down beside him,seeing him sleeping,didn't have the heart to wake him up, but TOO BAD,he must. he woke up half an hr before the time we had to leave,surprisingly, it didn't take him long to get ready. OF COURSE I HAD TO IRON HIS CLOTHES-.-
then went all the way to harbourfront,then as i expected,
bumped into thahirah and man.
then went off to meet Nad and fir who was already at sentosa.
theeennnn.. they ate a little, wait no, except for aslam, he ate ALOT.as usual.kesian bby..lapar eh..
our tongue was practically screaming for water, but the barer, late. hahahaha until we couldn't take it,aslam and i went to 7 eleven and bought some water..
even after that whole big gulp was finished,eliyana was still no where to be seen.-.-
blah3..story short.eliyana arrived.kecoh2.
then head off to swimming..aku da start malas nak type.....
swim2...joke2...burried eliyana(klakar nak mampos)...

okay know what? today was fun kay? enough said. pictures will be uploaded soon!happy?

wait2..
i wanna say thank you to aslam..^^ for everything you've done,only with one reason,me.
ive said so many things that i didn't mean to you. harsh things.i am trully sorry.
I don't know what i should do to repay you for what you did for me b, but i shall hold up to my condition.i promise.
this might sound like im sucking up,but he's like,i dare say, hard to be replaced.
i love him.i really do. oh and thanks for paying for everything^^ you is the best.

i just have to say.. im nervous and excited at the same time about tomorrow...
i really REALLY really... want things to go well....
jeez...so god help me^^.

here's whats gonna happend tomorrow,i am celebrating my 2nd yr anniversary with my..*step cute giler babi* fluffy teddybear,sweet pumpkin,cutie pie with the curly wurly hair boyfriend,aslam.. hahahahahahahaha.. blearghhhh...

anyways.. just now. went shopping. dad was expecting me to buy things as expensive as what i bought last time,so he prepared a whole lot of cash.
surprisingly, aku takde mood nak sophisticated, so i went out looking really typical...
den pegi bugis beli baju. BUGIS tau. i gotta say ALDO has really nice stuffs.
dad went all -.- with me. haha but happy of course.
hahahahahahahaahahahaha.......................
favourite of the day? jacket bought from espirit!...its gorg-e-ous. =P
hehe~
out with family today is pretty much fun.. haha! alot of laughters and lame jokes involved. HAHA.

oh yah, my brother got jealous of my new netbook so daddy bought him one too.
hahahaha
its not that expensive really.. for its size of course.^^


blah blah blah...

despite all that...
i still feel like im the only one excited about tomorrow...~

i had stupid ulcer all over my mouth. jeez.
mum bought me this medication, to apply to my ulcer.''bonjela'' which of course she pronounce as ''benjola''. malay mums. *rolls eyes*
its kinda tasty.hahaha.
now its recovering really fast.

wanna know how i got the ulcers? its because of those stupid green packet skittles.
hahaha! everytime i eat those, ill get ulcer all over my mouth.
thats one,
that day i ate one whole big bad grape. and you don't wanna know what happened after that. hhahaha

oh yeah,
past few days, i was sick, i felt sick , i vomited alot, and blood came out. i panicked, really panic. i called out my mum , and she saw alot of blood on my shirt.
she quickly took me to the clinic.
the doctor say i cannot be treated there, i needed to be taken to a hospital.
so i was brought to NUH the next morning, and apparently the doctor said, that my body is getting really exhausted, just as i was about to say '' but'' he interupted me saying ''i know you don't feel tired,but i have to tell you that you are really over working your body, you should get lots of rest before doing something else that requires alot of energy, drink alot of water. and i also encourage you to stop dancing for the moment because that is the main cause of your exhaustion, your brain is really thinking too much''

then my mum started to babble on and on about how i think about those things too much blah3.
then the doctor kept on questioning me on whether i have any relationship problems with anyone. i was like ''whut?-.-'' all the way.

but i think they're right though.
i shouldn't think too much. or ''over work my body'' -.-
ive already seized all dance practices until next year.
i turned down the job at SZ studios, fuckin regretful.
but whatever,
as long as everyone stop bitchin'.


now im just waiting for the
12th of december<3 cannot tell what's happening on this day.
14th of december:D going for holiday somewhere away from singapore. AWAY FROM YOU PEOPLE! haha okay kiddin.
18th of december-.- i hope this day wont exist. yup, its the result day.
20th december happy 2nd year anniversary to me and aslam
and also not forgetting, 28th of december. happy birthday to my bby^^
the rest are just normal outings.

thats all^^
sayonara.

Love's really a bitch.
no matter how sane you are, it can make you crazy.
no matter how smart you are, it can certainly make you dumb as hell.

So i was eating then my handphone rang, i checked to see who, and it was from SZ studios. i was shocked of course. once worked for them, i quitted halfway i think coz back then they were really on the watch of what im eating and how's my weight, i find it frustrating really.

I answered the phone and it was Zara!! ( old friend )

zara: hello is this Azyani misawar? i am zara from SZ studios, if you do not recognise my name or the company you must be a total jackass.

me: ZARA!!ahhh!! omg omg i miss you i miss you!!

zara: haha yeah yeah. k diam, i have to do this professionally. You have been selected to remodel for SZ studios. Free makeovers will be given and the shoots will not be as long as 8-9 hours like before.it will approximately only take up to 3 hours. this is to publish our new opening at havelock road. we would really appreciate it if you were to accept the offer.

me:yeah sure whatever.im bored anyways. haha omg i miss you!!

zara: okay miss, i shall call you in an hour to explain your venue of shoot. *whispers* ; i miss you too. hehe~

me:haha okay~

hahahaha so there you go. ^^ im officially employed!^^
i hope the schedule won't be as tight as before.

i just pity thahirah~ sighs.

I AM GOING TO STAY HOME UNTIL I GO CRAZY. gotta remind myself that.

but staying home, its really weight gaining,
what i do when im bored? i eat. and when i eat, i gain weight, and when i gain weight i have to go to the studio and dance to lose it back, and when i do that, plan fail.-.-

what have i been doing at home then?
yes, you people guessed it wrong,
i have been reading.
books.off course.
lots and lotsa books. my dad suggested it actually. coz he has been seeing me laying around playing L4D eating, watching tv, sleeping. prangai gemok sak .
so he and his noble dad tone, saying, ''spend your time wisely, read a book or something'' .
off course, first reaction would be, ''PFFT,like im gonna do that''
then there was the times when i stared at book and say '' hmmm i wonder..''
hahahaah! corny.
so i read it, and got addicted and asked my dad to buy me more books.
okay..now that i typed it, i realize i must be really bored.

I WILL NOT GO OUT AT ALL COST.
no dates.
no outings
no shopping:(

ishh..
shut up.

how far we'll go, i'll never know.

your mouth is dirtier then your asshole.

I AMM.... gonna have KITTENS!
gonna be picking them up after class tomorrow! hehee~ yeyyyyyy......

on another note,
something weird is going on. i just don't know what. i was freaking dragged to school by a call from my teacher.
okay i admit. since N levels were over, i totally forgot about my 'O'levels.
i mean who does that?
so she called and told me to get my ass down there by 1/2 an hour, i was like so f**ked up this morning.
and also by my mom's ''all you think about is your dancecrew'' speech.
i went there, and gawd was i pissed. the number of people who were there could be accurately guessed just by one glance.
Nadia wasn't even there! -.-
so nevermind, i tolerated for awhile. it was just a few mins, coz i got there VERY late.
and its gonna be going on for the rest of days, this week.
i have to get to school at 9. goshh~ just when i thought, holiday's here.

whatever.
im just looking forward to getting my kittens tomorrow! hehehehehee~

I've been going out often these few days.
i totally HAVE have HAVE to stay home.. they're planning on going to sentosa this wednesday which is like tomorrow?
idk if i wanna come. trust me, i have my reasons.

oh ya, last night, when i got back home,
i went straight to my brother's room, coz he wanted to watch this movie called
'' Paranormal Activity'' together.
idk if it's real or acting, but it sure is scary shit.
I couldn't sleep last night,this particular scene kept on replaying in my mind,
they set up a camera in their room to see if there were any abnormal things going on at night, and there were times when the girl( katee) woke up in the middle of the night and just stood beside the bed for 3 HOURS, staring at her boyfriend. the camera showed from 12 midnight fast forward till 315am in the morning.
there were also scenes of the door just moving by itself...
and THEE most scariest part was when at around 15th or 16th day.. katee was sleeping, and in the video, showed as if someone was pulling her out of bed, then she was dragged out from the room and the door was slammed shut, she shouted her boyfriend's name, he ran and like totally try to pull her away.
those scenes are like really terrifying. if i were her, goshh.. i would've totally freaked out.

you guys should totally watch.

ishh! as i was typing all this paranormal stuffs, my dad just stood behind me without any sound reading everything i type. i saw shadow moving, thats why i turned. totally scared the hell out of me. jeez~

BUSY

will not be updating that often.
haha right, like as if all this time i update regularly?
im in the brink of cash disaster.
now isnt that new?, me , being cashless. -.-

here's another exclusive,
when i was on the phone, i sorta told him that i wanted to buy a new sony erricson Xperia hp..
so,
right when i hung up the phone, my handphone just lost connections, and when i tried to off and restart it, it won't on.
i was like so pissed off with so many things hanging on my hands, and me trying to fix my hp, the train moving, and its not as if theres any sit...
so there,
i guess it's feelings were hurt in knowing that i wanted to replace it.
its officially dead.
talked to dad about it,
who knows? i might put up that puppy face act, and get a new phone?
hahahaha. i mean how long am i suppose to go on without a phone?
haha what an excuse.

^^

Rest In Peace my dear..

I whisper to the moon, give me back,
my companion,my love, my heaven...
without him,
darkness fills me...
loneliness holds me in its embrace.

Night,dont let the day come,
let it always be in twilight..
let it be peacefull,
like me..

________________________________________________________________________________________

other note,

i have to say,

History is going to repeat itself..
all you ever needed to do, was learn, and not repeat the mistakes you've done,
but you people never learn do you?
here you are, again.. repeating the story that has been played for so many times.

a simple girl's advice would be,
Don't be stupid.

the naivety of man~~ makes it easier for girls to play around.

today merepek nak mampos.
went to ite balestier. the school is a reck.
courses smue FIRST CHOICE uh.-.-
we were all like '' EH INTERESTING AH! -.-'' .

but but the oreos made by the culinaries are like effing awesome.

EXCLUSIVE part of the day .
there's a bus to go there, no bus to go back.
we were at freaking ite balestier which was in the middle of freaking no where.
we stared at the other schools going back by bus.
so all like 14 15 of us? the usual people. asked a few people.
this one group of guys, lucky not matrep. lead us to boonkeng station. really nice of them.
from like 14 15 of us to like eliyana,thahirah,sakinah and me. the rest went home by bus i think?
so we reached boon keng. said thanks to them. no flirting involved. haha
quite a far walk.
i have no idea how they could like travel so far like almost everyday... haiyoo.

oh yah. when changing trains at jurong east, someone stepped on my foot while i was on the phone, thought it was thahirah so i turned and went like, MOTHER FUCK, then this chinese guy was like oh sorry2. i was like oh, its okay HAH. still, some of the ite students were watching, i was like omg how embarrassing. haiyooo. *slaps forehead*

as soon as i got home, i eat, then i fell straight to sleep.
jeez, i wont go for any school trip anymore. period.

.. i miss somebody... ^^

bubye!

okay lah okay. i won't abandon my blog.
here's whats been going on.
NOTHING.....but back to dance practice. i wanted to find a job, didnt seem to have the time.
everyone seems to be busy. GFs planning to go out on next saturday.<3
miss em.
what else what else.
i lost 3kg. maybe coz ive been eating less and dancing more? it really helps you know.
bought new clothes. its weird how i always lay my eyes on the bags when alll i really wanted to buy was CLOTHES.
but i managed.

blah3. unpaid bill. marvelous. ( see? im not rich )
menggigil you know tangan, handed over 200 bucks to dad. *sobs* wtv i don't need it.

there's gonna be an excursion tomorrow to ite balestier, i still dont know whether i should go or not, they're gonna be briefing about ite cck.
that school is mother effing huge btw, not far fromm my house, can jalan.
but no shelter, so like heck no.

my whole family is down on fever except me. hah hah.
i just hope i wont be like infected. coz if im sick, its not gonna be pretty.

i amm going to upload more pictures as soon AS I GET THEM ( sarah!-.-) .
heee~

bubye